Reveries and Passions: 07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005
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Thursday, July 28, 2005
Blessings of single-hood:
Yupz, I'm glad I'm single especially during exam time. I have a friend in biochem who's currently in a huge fight with his gf and it's been super draining on them both. Everytime I see his drooping face...I'm reminded of Jay-Z's lyrics: "I've got 99 problems but the.....ain't one, if you got girl problems I feel bad for you son."
Go singlehood. Booyah!
Anywho, I've also realized that my blog postings have been consistently super duper shallow...if you get my drift. Perhaps it's a side of me that wants to entertain, then perhaps again I'm just a shallow guy. But I just wanna share something that I learned recently and it's given me new perspective.
[Jeremiah 18:1-6]
"This is the word that came to Jeremiah from the LORD : "Go down to the potter's house, and there I will give you my message." So I went down to the potter's house, and I saw him working at the wheel. But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him. Then the word of the LORD came to me: "O house of Israel, can I not do with you as this potter does?" declares the LORD. "Like clay in the hand of the potter, so are you in my hand, O house of Israel."
Just because we've screwed up in the past, it does not mean God cannot use us anymore. God can use any situation (even our failures) for His glory. That's something that I've been struggling with. Cause in the past I've screwed up many times in terms of sexual temptations (and still do at times). I've been in a relationship that was dishonouring to God and as well having an impure mind and heart. But I think slowly and surely God's teaching me that I will carry my sins no more as He is faithful to forgive. However, the scars of my sins will still be there to remind me of my failures, but it's also there to remind me of His great faithfulness. No matter how many times I fall and disobey, He's the faithful Father with His arms wide open.
Sometimes I feel really unworthy to serve...and I think that may be partly why I've been hesistant lately to be a leader/servant at fellowship/church/softball. And because of past mistakes, I don't wanna risk being in a relationship to repeat it again. Anyways, I thought that it'd be good if I started being more transparent on my blog...cause if people can still accept one another with their warts and all, beauty =)
[Ephesians 5:8-13]
"For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. For it is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. But everything exposed by the light becomes visible..."
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Dang, today was the worst softball game I've ever played...like friggin' serious. Didn't even touch first base, missed all the balls hit to me...felt really bad after each of my mistakes. It's like a gaping hole in which the poly-liposaccharides has been infected with a T-even phage. Been a while since I've felt this shittake...man, it was stupid too. Since there was a certain individual on the team which another certain individual would like to impress but did a crap-tacular job of it. The person trying to impress the individual went for the glory-shots and plays and ended up effing it up.
I suppose there's a lesson for the individual to learn from all this...it's that doing things for one's glory will turn out to be one's own shame.
Well, a bench-warming position has recently opened up and I'm sure the individual would fit perfectly into that role.
The End.
"Excuse me, I've seem to have lost myself in your eyes...can you gimme the directions to your heart?"
Friday, July 22, 2005
Finally finished my lab exams...now all I have to do is pass them. That's gonna be hard. Two assignments and three finals...then the term is coda!
Anyways, as a biochemist...one learns to be quite observant in all situations. In particular, I have noted something quite profound about my current academic term. I have noticed that all my profs and lab instructors...get this...are members of the female species. Yes, I know...what are the odds of that happening?
Just thought I point that out to bridge into the next topic...
...I got asked by a...get this...GIRL to her 20th b-day party today. I don't really talk to her nor she to me. We see each other during class but haven't been formally introduced. Here's how the convo went:
Girl: "Hey, what's your name?" =) =) =)
Sam: "I'm Sam, you're Maggie right?"
Girl: "Yeah...so, oh yeah...wanna come to my 20th b-day party tomorrow?" =) =) =)
Sam: "Ummm...sorry, I'm going back to TO this weekend" (at this point I'm wishing I hadn't signed up for Summerlicious and kicking myself for doing so)
Girl: "Oh...you're one of those Toronto people eh? Alright, bye!" =) =) =)
She was either pitying my loneliness and current loser-status...or it's my nerdiness finally paying off. Whatever the reason, today has been a landmark day. I shall forever deem this day..."the-day-when-I-got-invited-by-a-fair-maiden-to-her-party day"
Yupz. Let's rejoice, bring out the differential equations...we've got some celebrating to do!!!
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Thoughts you sow...reap actions
Actions you sow...reap habits
Habits you sow...reap lifestyle
Lifestyle you sow...reaps destination.
"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things." [Philippians 4:8]
Gives one a second thought...about their thoughts?
As an aside...
saw Fantastic Four this weekend...and the movie has inspired me to become a bigger nerd. Yes, I have realized that with great nerdiness...comes great responsibilities (and you get the lady). Therefore I must make amendments to my Postulate #1 (renditions in italics):
CHICKS DIG BLUBBER(Y) NERDS
Before I lose my train of thought...here's another aside:
I present...the NERD-tastic Four,
Mr. Nerd-tastic: ability to elongate Grignard reagents without the aid of non-protonated solvents. He can stretch the limits of an aldol synthesis with superhuman activation energies.
Divisible Girl: Uses her standard deviation shield to fend off probable errors...evil quotients with remainders don't stand a chance with this numb(er) crunching gal.
The Human Torque: With quantum physics being his forte, he can turn supernova and spin up relativity constants before his foes can recite the digits in pi.
The Threonine: Toughest amino acid of the bunch, he utilizes the short side chains to bind to non-polar solvents. Carboxylase does not stand a chance against this rocky protein.
Friday, July 08, 2005
I just had a man-to-man talk with one of my housemates. He told me a story...it went something like this:
There was once a professor who taught at a school for 30 years. As his teaching commitment ended, his retirement quickly came. On his last day of classes the new professor (who turned out to be one of his previous pupils) came to bid the elderly professor tidings on his retirement. The young prof (former pupil and a young chum) said to the elder prof, "You have not been teaching for 30 years...you've only taught for one year." At this, the elderly prof got irrate, but the young chum/prof continued, "You've only taught for one year because in the first year of teaching you were new and had to do everything from scratch. But in the years following all you did was recycle the material and taught each class word by word without adding anything new to it.".....
So what conclusion was drawn from this story? My Christian walk has been pathetic lately. I feel just like the elderly prof, drawing from past experiences over and over without trying anything new. Stagnancy came, and it seems like I've only a year of "teaching" for my 7 years of being a Christian. Maybe cause I have a commitment issue, or perhaps tis' a lack of discipline. Whatever the case, I needed to hear the story and to wake up.
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Do you remember when
You were way back then
You held the world inside your hands
When you told me love
Was the strongest stuff
Your strength was innocence
But, oh man
The signs of the times are omens
You're starting the day in
No man's land again
Who are you gonna be?
When you're on your knees, who do you believe?
Fear is a lonely man
You've been given innocence
You've been given innocence again
You should know by now
That your darkest hour
Is when your broken heart goes down
It's a bitter end
When the sweet begins
Grace is sufficiency
But, oh dear, we'll never deserve it
No dear, we never could earn it
Now, here, the choice is yours
Grace is high and low
Grace is high and low
Grace is high and low
We'll never be the same