Wednesday, March 03, 2004
What pride I had in myself is fleeting. God has truly been showing me my weakness in my former strength. I once thought that I was quite successful in the area of academics, but this week God has taught me otherwise. All the marks I got back from three of my classes have been lower than a 63%. Today was a milestone in humility...I failed my first mid-term ever in Spectroscopy with a whopping 49%. Am I disappointed? No doubt! Am I discouraged? Absolutely! But the question isn't whether I am satisfied or not, but the more important question is how can I honour God despite my inabilities? I wanna learn to give God the glory in all circumstances, especially when it seems down and hopeless. I need to be able to look to Him for happiness, not in the things that I get on this earth.
Putting eternity into perspective is key. What marks I receive is just temporal compared to the marks that I will receive when I get to heaven.
Anyways, it's been a long week, a long day, and a long time since I've been this discouraged. Tis' all good in Jesus' hood though! =)
